On Healthy Living

Do you ever wonder if your mental health has caused your physical health to deteriorate? I have challenged this issue with myself for many years and I have often wondered if I am the cause of my own diseases. Emotionally I guess I have never been really strong, although I try to be. I am finding lately that things that happened to me years ago (I’m talking like 20 + years ago) are coming back to haunt me today. As these thoughts and memories haunt me, I find that my physical health continues to deteriorate.

I have always been one who tries to pretend that everything is okay and I try to keep a smile on my face and not show that I am upset or that things are bothering me, but inside I feel like I am a train wreck. I guess all of my years of “thinking” I was dealing with things okay has come back to show me that I was so wrong.

I am learning that in order to get better physically I need to get better mentally and discover who I really am, get past old demons, and enjoy life. Lord knows I don’t want to pass any of my issues onto my son because I don’t want him going through what I am experiencing now when he is my age.

I wanted to write a book, so now I guess I am going to have something to really write about! My emotional journey has been hard and hopefully once I can fix my emotional sickness my physical sickness will improve.

ff wrote this on April 17th, 2008 and filed it under Healthy Living, Mental Health |